I've had a NDE and several OBE's and I struggle so much now with feeling 'pleasurable' things like I did before. I wonder if others have or are experiencing this. I remember that in what seems like a former life..I used to like smoking a little marijuana but now I see it as useless as nothing compares to the feeling that I experienced when I had an NDE and my OBEs. Relationships don't seem the same either, as I can see that there really is no love..it's just all circumstantial and fickle..so I don't invest as much feelings anymore. I've learned to enjoy subtle things more..like a dark winter's day or quiet evening when the stars are bright in the sky..just wonder if other's may have similar experiences.
Sounds like you have been shown an alternate possible reality as contrast.
But, you have been allowed the opportunity to try to make this current reality into what you really desire or value.
Lucky you !